not the club in toronto, but perhaps in lipstick form? i am awaiting the processing of an invoice before i make any purchases, but i need something red. call me festive (or not).
also: must buy leggings and i.d. make-up here since AmApparel and i.d. (at Sephora!) prices here are actually reasonable (to calculate Aus $ prices, multiply by 3 or 4 - serious).
also, in other news, i fell asleep at around 4am after a good long talk with Ted, calming me down and helping me make sense of certain things. skype is a pretty neat tool.
finally, i am trying very hard to open my mind and to take into account that everyone is in a different spot... and that i can't assume just because something works or makes sense for me that it will fit well with others' wishes or needs.
the trickiest trick to living a full life in my view is to strike a balance between my happiness and compassion for what that happiness in its real form does to others in my life. i know i left, i know it upset some, mildly affected others, perhaps pleased a few but on a whole was of no consequence to most. i want to say here that i am going to make a concerted effort to focus my love, attention, and relationship building activities towards the people who have cared all along, and to stop focusing on things that are fleeting, trivial and past the point of making sense.
i jumped back in, both feet, to this muddy water that i left behind. it is not new, this whole process of 'coming home' - the saying goes you can never go back there. maybe that is only true if you aren't willing to step back and look at the patterns and change them.
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